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29 March 2017

Another day of feeling a bit tired and it’s only Wednesday (went to bed too late I suspect). It’s funny but I’ve been struggling with work stuff at the moment, something to do with a project not coming together this winter, which often results in a bit of a slump (disappointment, both with the outcome - or non outcome - and with myself). When you put several months of thought into something it’s hard when you have to let it go, and it seems to leave a bit of a void, that that energy is not commodity any other part of me can spend. And so work stuff, like writing, even the point of writing - that ‘what am I doing with my life’ thing creeps in. I’m trying to launch a kickstarter for my The Bear Pit book, but as with most things I do I’m 95% there, but can’t find that last 5%. I need to record myself reading from the book and it never sounds write (what sounds great in your head often sounds shit on your tongue). And so for the last few days I’ve kept kicking it down the road, that tomorrow I’d launch it. But the question I have to ask myself, is what’s the underlying reason for that last 5%, that maybe saying I’m shit is just a way of hiding the truth? I think to be honest I’m scared of launching such a project, that if it was a big wall book, or follow up to Cold Wars, or a film, it would fly, but climbing fiction? Maybe at this slight dip in how I view my job as a writer, to launch such an ambitious project, and for it to fail, maybe that’s what the problem is.

And so this morning, feeling the pressure to get this kickstarter thing finished I had that familiar thought, that I’d not train today and crack on with work. Now the danger with this is something I know very well. One way to be ‘happy’ and feel fulfilled in some way is to divide up what it takes to create that sense of accomplishment each day: to be a good partner (to remember to say ‘I love you’, to make them feel wanted and special), to be good to your body (to move, to stress it and make it stronger), to make some small step towards success in your grafting life (make money, lay the foundations for being better). If you do this you can have failure in one or even two, but you should always hit one, and on the best days all three. But putting all you happiness in one silo, to make money, is to invite unhappiness. To think I’d not go to the gym today, and to still end the day without completing my kickstarter project would be to rob me of the possibility of doing one good thing to offset that disappoint. I often try and explain this to people who have depression, that to do the smallest thing well, like simply brushing your teeth, having a shower, making a meal that does not come in a box, gives that day its value.

And so I went to the gym.

Anyway I wanted to run 5km in under 25 minutes today, which is no big thing but is to me (I’m not a good shape for a runner!). Usually run at 11kph for first 1km then switch backward as forwards between 11.5kph and 12kph but today I kept it on 12kph after first 500m. I seemed to be going fine, which was cool, as this meant there’s some improvement going on, but then I blew it by trying to do 13kph for the last 1km, which resulted in me having to drop back, the result 25:02, which just goes to show often what you desire is best achieved in small changes, not giant overreaching steps!
Wanted to give my shoulders a rest today so did some mobility work on my shoulders with the bar, doing overhead squats with just the bar (my shoulders don’t seem to want to go back far enough for this to feel easy), then some ass to grass squats.

The Day's Training

  • Run 5km 25:02
  • Low Squat 60kg 5x10
  • Forward row 20kg 5x10
  • Overhead squat 20kg 5x10

Note:These numbers don't include warm up, which tend to be done at 25%, 50% and 75% of final weigh.

Notes

A bit of a lacklustre showing, but maybe the run tired me out a bit?

Day's Training

  • Run 5km 25:02
  • Low Squat 60kg 5x10
  • Forward row 20kg 5x10
  • Overhead squat 20kg 5x10

Note:These numbers don't include warm up, which tend to be done at 25%, 50% and 75% of final weigh.